Saturday, May 20, 2006
ThiS feW DaYs i kEeP woNderIng wAt cAn i dO fOr GOD?I wAs Quite SaD on Friday becoz during recess ,i went back to my last year classmates class..then they were toking abt chalet stuff...so i just stand behind one of my closer Guy friend..i didn't say anything..He suddenly turn back and said "u dun need to tell me that u are not going..and i already know the reason why Becoz u have already told me"i was so shocked and disppointed..ok! i admit i am a chatterbox..and i could tok and dun realize that i'm repeating the same thing.. becoz i dun noe whether i got tell this friend before..so i said it again..i was so sad throughout the whole day..i almost cried in the band room..and the LORD said to me.. "dun cry, my child .no matter wat people says,u are still precious to me.." i felt so touched..and i was so happy after that..when i try to think of it..i could not feel the pain anymore..This is hOw wonderful GOd is!! praise the Lord!! while using msn..i tok to one of my friend, I tRy to cOunSel mY FrIeND To stOp beIng wIth thOse frIends whiCh is nOt wOrth IT to bE wiTh.. aFter suCh LonG tIme saying him.. he seems to be willing to change..but he says is difficult to turn back already..i keep asking GOd wat can i help him? then he said lol.. i said tht i felt he dun wan to change but in my mind i knew that he wanted to change but he keep thinking that he cannot turn back already..why i said that to him..he said he is disppointed in me becoz he say he thought i understand abit.. but acually even me also dun understand him..i am really sad.. i keep crying and asking GOD wat am i going to do now?i spoil the chance to make him turn back to who he used to be! now i could only prayed that he could realize that is not worth to be with those friends..and actually we understand him..and we could be trustd on..
i will never let you go;
10:16 PM
